A day late but I wish you all a Happy Valentine’s Day!
I sat down to write yesterday and just couldn’t get my thoughts together about this day. It is a strange holiday (or maybe it has morphed into a strange holiday). You were either showered with gifts or forgotten. You were either utterly in love or alone, or falling out of love or mourning lost loves. You were made to feel special or you were feeling left out. It’s ok. Love comes to us in so many forms if we can just allow for it. Otherwise, the weird expectation we have associated with this day can set us up for disappointment.
I have a valentine that my Grandfather gave to my Grandmother in the 1940’s. It is a lovely paper card with a puffy stitched satin heart and lace. And it smells like old perfume. This little card was kept and held onto so dearly by my grandmother and I’m sure it was looked upon with a tight throat after his passing. And here it sits, alive and well in 2016 among the 4 feet tall teddy bears, sparkly lingerie and gluten free-nut free-vegan-fair trade organic chocolate bars. Frozen in time. A reminder of the simple gesture of what Valentine’s day once was. A beautiful card purchased at Woolworth’s for a nickle.
I received nothing this year and I am not complaining. My husband isn’t consistent about those kind of things. But he shows up. Every day. There he is. And he fixed the toaster and cleaned the kitchen. He showed up. There was a little tug at my heart with each facebook post of flowers, chocolates, beautiful meals out and even shoes. Our relationships have seasons and where this may have upset me 10 years ago, yesterday, I focused on the love that I have for so many people around me. For my little ones and how their face lit up when they opened my silly little paper heart cut out. For the plants that nourish my body and the animals that bring me such joy. For my family who love me despite my craziness and for friends who do amazing work in this sad and scary world.
And I was also reminded yesterday of the love I have for myself, or am starting to have. For my legs that take me places I need or want to go. For my arms to hold and carry those little ones so tight, my eyes for taking in all of the beauty during my time on this great and spinning earth, and my heart that keeps on pumping life to the rest of my body. As long as it keeps beating I will have love to give and will allow room to receive it. No matter what the form may be.
Be well,
Amy
Wait a minute! I did so receive something yesterday. My 6 year old made me the most beautiful paper heart with ribbon and fabric heart cut out and glued on. It will be treasured and displayed yearly, and passed back on to her someday as my Grandmother did with her beloved Valentine.